Sunday, October 28, 2007
this is it.
lots of luck to everybody.
may we get the results we've always dreamed of.
and then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive
so when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you
and can you, for once, have confidence in your own intelligence. you're the most intelligent person i know, seriously. so stop doubting yourself and start believing! and stop making backup plans, for goodness sake.
a star fell from the sky;
6:57 PM
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
yes, i believe that the only thing constant is change. that sometimes things change for the better and sometimes for the worse. but its never occurred to me that maybe we cannot stop the change and we have no choice but to change with it. i always thought that change occurs because of people. because of their actions. because of their attitudes. and i always thought that if we dont like the way things are changing, we can always try to change it back or change it another way. but it never really sank in that im not the one in control all the time. i cant stop people from changing, people from taking certain actions they take, things from happening to the people i love. i do my best to convince them otherwise but it doesnt always work out the way i want it to. i can try to convince them of certain things but ultimately its their decision, their attitude, their life. afterall, im only one person in their life. and im definitely not the only person. and its not that change is always a bad thing. sometimes we have to grow, relationships have to evolve from what they were before, people have to change. although inertia dictates that i would always like the status quo to remain, i still accept that maybe the new status quo will be better. so of course, lets evolve.
im glad we're slightly different now. im glad you gave me a chance to actually do what i've always told you i would. im glad you proved to me that you can do it too. im glad we're stronger now than we were before.
its the way we touch that soothes me
its the way we'll always be
a star fell from the sky;
1:51 PM
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
i learnt a new song on the piano today. im still kinda slow but at least can hear some tune. haha. its faith hill's there you'll be. and as i was learning i realized it has really nice lyrics. so im gonna post it here so all you guys can read it and get some satisfaction too. come on man, free ride! im giving you an opportunity to! haha.
caroline thanks for the scare today man. no, i still dont appreciate it. it was a scare okay. a scare is a scare is a scare. argh.
and my studying is like slower than the snail we saw last night la. haiz. nvm its gonna be over soon. yeah man.
When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad coz I was blessed to get
to have you in my life
When i look back on these days
I'll look and see your face
you were right there for me
In my dreams I always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be
Well you showed me how it feels
to feel the sky within my reach
and i always will remember all the strength you gave to me
your love made me make it through
oh i owe so much to you
you were right there for me
In my dreams I always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be
Coz i always saw in you my light, my strength
and i want to thank you now for all the ways
you were right there for me
In my dreams I always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be
awwww so nice. haha. yeah man ive generated positive externalities today :)
cant wait to stop all the econs and chem dropping in my posts. cant wait to stop visiting the photocopy shop like its mango having sale or sth. cant wait to be excited about something else other than new stationary. cant wait to have time to catch up with friends i haven seen in a long time. cant wait to go tanning again. cant wait to hit the gym. cant wait to go out glamly again instead of in sch u all the time.
patience, dear ming.
a star fell from the sky;
7:45 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Greatest Story Ever Told
-Oliver James
Thank you for this moment
I got to say how beautiful you are
Of all the hope and dreams I could have prayed for
There you are
If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight its you and I together
Im so glad
Im your man
And if I live a thousand years you know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you tonight
I don't hear the music
When Im looking in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of you body close to mine
It's the way we touch it sends me
Its the way we'll always be
Your kiss, your pretty smile you know I die for
You're all I need
And if I live a thousand years you know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
Did I tell you that I love you just how much I really need you
Did I tell you that I love you tonight
If I live a thousand years I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But If destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
Did I tell you that I love you just how much I really need you
Did I tell you that I love you tonight
this song totally rocks my socks. awwwww. go listen!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIYUN!!
it was nice to celebrate your birthday ytd. like for the first time in many years! but ure 19 now!! haha can even drive can. big girl yeah. im waiting for that day too!
my dearest lauren, i really wish i could help in some way. but since theres nothing i can do, just rmbr im always here for you! focus k! and sometimes its better to be mean now den cruel in the long run right? love you always :)
ive been a good girl these few days. mugging away. not veri productive tho. anyway my moms coming back tonight. there isnt actually a very big diff when shes not here except we're like more efficient and the house is quieter and i dont get woken up by her voice in the morning. but we're really super disciplined with my dad always around. his disciplineness is rubbing off on us :) oh and we're gonna have homecooked food again :)
well guys. its the final stretch. the last 100m. lets sprint and give it our all!
but if destiny decided i should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did i tell you that i love you tonight
a star fell from the sky;
2:28 PM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
and i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life
a star fell from the sky;
11:19 PM
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
heh. i blogged today alr. but im gonna blog again! coz theres this hilarious conversation i wanna post. its damn funny, seriously.
ming `you'll never know says:
paikia
ming `you'll never know says:
haha
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
eh what............................
ming `you'll never know says:
i dont play cards in vj one okay!
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
i vry guai one ok
ming `you'll never know says:
right
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
vj mah
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
eh dunno who drink seven-up one ah
ming `you'll never know says:
yeah everybody too busy mugging away
ming `you'll never know says:
haha
ming `you'll never know says:
people legal age alr can!
ming `you'll never know says:
not like someone
ming `you'll never know says:
underage still drink 7-up!
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
i was..........INSTIGATED and FORCED by some paikia leh
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
i'm innocent!!
ming `you'll never know says:
wow
ming `you'll never know says:
someone throw big words at me siaa
ming `you'll never know says:
HAHA
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
you mean the size nt the meaning i hope
ming `you'll never know says:
hm,
ming `you'll never know says:
okay the size
ming `you'll never know says:
haha
ming `you'll never know says:
anything lor
ming `you'll never know says:
if it makes you happy!
ming `you'll never know says:
but i nv force anybody to do anything okay
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
no seriously i pray it's nt meaning cos your GP exam is in one mth
ming `you'll never know says:
thanks man!
ming `you'll never know says:
haha
ming `you'll never know says:
i know what it means la!
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
I KNOW!
ming `you'll never know says:
dont need to worry man
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
you're fr. VJ
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
lol
ming `you'll never know says:
SO?!?
ming `you'll never know says:
i knew what it meant before i came vj!
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
hm..... can't disagree w/ that. since i think that's y you managed to get in vj in the 1st place lol
ming `you'll never know says:
hmm
ming `you'll never know says:
okay
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
and you said you didn't force me right
ming `you'll never know says:
so i guess you know what it means too since ure in AJ and since you're throwing it at me!
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
heard of peer pressure
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
-_-"
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
i took it fr. the VJ 100 most cheem GP words wordlist
ming `you'll never know says:
wowowow
ming `you'll never know says:
no wonder it looks so familiar
ming `you'll never know says:
hmm
ming `you'll never know says:
what does it mean again?
ming `you'll never know says:
let me check
ming `you'll never know says:
p............
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
i think it means Ming holds a knife at your throat and says: hey wanna drink 7-up?
ming `you'll never know says:
HEYHEYYOUYOU!!
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
i don't like your girlfiend
ming`you'll never know says:
NOWAYNOWAY
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
I think you need a new one
ming `you'll never know says:
HEYHEYYOUYOU
Cat. High Ventures '06 : says:
i could be your girlfriend???o.O
ming `you'll never know says:
ER
okay thats the end of the hilarious part. oh gosh. stomachache man.
okay now im really going off. i am pulling myself off the com and to my bed.
nights, guys.
you make me wanna love
you make me wanna fall
you make me wanna surrender my soul
a star fell from the sky;
8:48 PM
caroline and i were singing 'if we hold on together' and we realized we cldnt rmbr the bloody words. so irritating la. like you know its somewhere in your brain but you just cant fish it out. so im typing it here. if i ever forget, pls remind me. and caroline, these are the lyrics. confirm plus chop. no more guessing! we managed to come up with most of them ourselves tho. not bad eh!
its quite inspirational at this time, with just a little more than a week left to the big As. and the song is so sad it reminds me of the sad movie which never fails to make me tear. but it is an impressively good movie. the first one anyway. i didnt really watch the rest. and we sang this song at my kindergarten graduation! aww. so i hope this gives you guys some motivation. and come on, we're gonna be done soon! lets chiong the last 100m!
Don't lose your waywith each passing dayyou've come so fardont throw it awaylive believing dreams are for weaving wonders are waiting to startlive your story faith hope and gloryhold to the truth in your heartif we hold on together
i know our dreams will never die
dreams see us through to forever
where clouds roll by
for you and i
souls in the wind
must learn how to bendseek out a star hold on till the endvalley, mountainthere is a fountainwashes our tears all awayworlds are swaying somebody's prayingplease let us come home to stayif we hold on together
i know our dreams will never die
dreams see us through to forever
where clouds roll by
for you and i
when we are out there in the darkwe'll dream about the sunin the dark we'll feel the lightwarm our heartseveryoneif we hold on together
i know our dreams will never die
dreams see us through to forever
where clouds roll by
for you and i
as high as souls can fly
the clouds roll by
for you and i
a star fell from the sky;
8:31 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
i met my nephew today for the first time today. he is officially one month old! hes cute even though he was sleeping all the while. im surprised he can sleep through all the chatter and people passing him around! so i am officially an aunt. i've been promoted, along with my 20 plus cousins. haha we were discussing what our official titles should be. its something like twelfth cousin auntie in english. haha. even my bro is an uncle now la! and hes like eight? so cool eh. our family is expanding and getting more and more complicated sia. figuring out the names itself is hard enough :)
and shiyun drove us home after that! it was scary la. how can you feel secure sitting in a car driven by your nineteen year old cousin who just got her license? it was interesting though. she wasnt driving very fast and i could see all the cars and lorries zooming past us in the other lanes la. and its quite funny listening to her dad giving her instructions too. like "go faster!", den "why are you going so slow!? expressway you know!" and "why are you keeping so much to the left!? after you hit the curb!" and i think the funniest was one that she told me. "why you keep stepping on the accelerator!? waste my petrol!" luckily she didnt mount any curbs while i was in the car! and now i have less phobia of driving. maybe i have realized that its not sth that pple my age cannot do afterall. i wanna take driving lessons now! haha. even though i wont have a car to drive. at least i can drive my dads car! can kope it for the weekend :) den my family cannot go out! haha.
okay its time to really study.
and there are voices that want to be heard
so much to mention but you can't find the words
a star fell from the sky;
7:40 PM
Friday, October 12, 2007
one whole week of remedials. haiz. coming to sch is really tiring. haha. but im glad things are going super duper well for my friends (: ahem. i hope i have not been giving bad advice again. but well you guys know how to differentiate between good advice and bad advice right! i hope you had enough practice over the last nearly two years. sorry i cant filter out the advice myself ;)
i shld start waking up earlier. i wanted to get up at seven today and go for a run. haha. guess what happened? i woke up at eight plus and had a morning chat with caroline. HAHA. whats new? okay i am gonna be disciplined. yupp i think thats really what my life needs now. discipline. even if i cant lead a disciplined life forever im sure i can do it for the next month or so? until As are totally absolutely over and i can be as undisciplined as i want. strange how we can be disciplined in some areas and totally slack in others. i think if we can see results immediately the fear makes us have more self-restraint. like if we can see our waist getting bigger with every meal we'll definitely confirm plus chop not eat for the next week or sth. but u cant really see your As when you work now. its not like if i dont finish what i wanted to do today i can see my A dropping to a B. if i can i'll be working my butt of everyday man. oh well. maybe its time to scare myself.
okay key word today is discipline.
but on top of that i think ive been having pretty bad luck this week. maybe fengshui really does lun liu zhuan. well i hope it spins back to my turn soon. i feel like lindsay lohan in just my luck la. my stationary runs away from me. my bus refuses to come whenever im at the bus stop. the only thing im missing is the pouring rain and the not working umbrella. choy. i shld stop cursing myself. if today really rains right. argh. i hope not. sorry to anghong and tsunwang for repelling the 48 ytd and making u all wait so long. haha. and the best is we saw the first 48 and the next bus stop. HAHA. maybe this is what happens when you have really bad luck.
and i have two new toilets now! haha. i never knew how horrible it is to have no toilets until the day both toilets were covered in concrete and we cldnt use them. so we had to use the last toilet which is really more like a laundry area and not a toilet. i was so glad to see a toilet bowl the next day la. haha. well at least its worth it coz i have brand new sparkling toilets now. but kinda miss the old one. haha. maybe thats what humans are like. inertia. and we only treasure toilet bowls when we dont have them. tell me how many of you actually take the toilet bowls in our school for granted. what if they were all those squat toilets? haha.
okay second key word for today is appreciation.
its the same with you. i always think i will be satisfied, even if we never have another day together, because of this day, because its special, because you gave me all i ever wanted. but theres so many special days and they will never be enough for me. maybe thats human too. endless wanting. we'll never be contented. after one, we want another. after two, we want a third. after a third, we want more and more. im sorry i cant be content. but theres one thing i will never want more of. and thats you. one you is really enough to last me the rest of my life. i know its abit early to be saying that but i think that for some things, experiencing it once in your life is already more than what many people can ask for. i think caroline told me that. haha prob being a member of the gac is one of those things. its not everyday that you can find someone you would like to guard (:
let me light up the sky
light it up for you
a star fell from the sky;
10:20 AM
Sunday, October 07, 2007
we had a nearly full attendance gang outing ytd night, in honour of tiefu's birthday. the only person who didnt make it was junxiang. not bad for a gang like ours man. haha. and being 21 days away from the big As too. oh well. at least we have some gang spirit! the night was entertaining man. i learnt three malayalam phrases from nikhil and suaning was fun too. well now since we know they can find each other without us pushing them to each other, lets let them find each other themselves! i am of course talking about caroline and tiefu if you havent alr realised. and i finally got to try the cheese fondue thing. which is pretty nice. but dont ever go to e pizza hut at ps man. the service is so lousy you wldnt believe it. some of their china waitresses cant even understand or speak english at all. and we had to wait like mad even tho we had a reservation. piss me off man.
but going home after the thing was scary. coz our gang split up an cine to go home and i thought my bus stop was e one right behind cine. i was e only one going there and when i reached e bus stop i realised i must have rmbred wrongly coz i dont have a bus there. so it was either walk in the dark to find the next bus stop or walk backwards to e somerset bus stop. being the smart girl that i am, i decided to walk forwards until i walked until the part that was super dark and with alot of funny lanes. i realised i would most prob get lost if i continued so i decided to turn back. so i went back to e wrong bus stop. well to cut a long story short i managed to finally find my bus stop at about 1130 but i was damn tired and it was pretty frightening wandering around the back of orchard all alone and in the dark. it made me feel really really lonely. all the other three girls had people to send them home and i was all alone wandering around the scary part of orchard. it was pretty sad. night is always a pretty rough time for me but its so much worse when ure alone and lost. oh well.
and i realized the path mimi walked down on friday night at wheelock there is damn scary. she was brave la coz i would have turned back. i felt so bad for leaving her alone. i swear im nv gonna let you walk down that path alone again!
let me light up the sky
light it up for you
let me tell you why
i would die for you
let me light up the sky
light it up for you
let me make this mine
i'll ignite for you
a star fell from the sky;
2:43 PM
Saturday, October 06, 2007
have you guys opened e cd we got ytd? i just did. and its quite funny coz all the pictures inside were totally foreign to me. i see alot of victorians in pe shirt and covered in mud and stuff and they all look really happy but sadly, these faces, these events dont mean anything to me. its really sad coz i was so bored watching the thing. in e end i closed it half way. haha.
but i really wanna read the little prince. im so gonna go bookshop and buy man. haha. hopefully after As i can read it and digest it. and i think the lyrics that ms chia gave us on our card are really really nice and inspirational. the song is not too bad too.
farewell assembly was super funny. im really glad i went. its the last time we're gonna be sitting in that hall with our friends and stuff. prob e nxt time we'll all be wearing nice clothes and getting back our results. well thanks to the gang minus sihua and jenny for their company that last assembly :) and thanks to the le kans for doing mass dance with us man. if not caroline and i prob wont get to dance e mass dance one last time. oh well.
the last ct was quite sad too. ms chia made quite a touching speech. and e photo taking was really funny :) well really whatever i wanted to say is alr in the song i posted previously. although i have to say i dont think i'll miss these two years alot, i really think these two years have been absolutely essential for us to grow. where else can we learn the value of hard work then in a school with a motto like nil sine laboure right. haha.
okay thats all for today. mug hard and enjoy the weekend!
a star fell from the sky;
12:54 PM
Thursday, October 04, 2007
when the going gets tough, some people draw strength from the people around them. some draw strength from inside themselves. everyone finds different ways to motivate themselves, to pull themselves up when their feeling down, to keep going when they really just feel like giving up. we're all different, because we're all different people. the most important thing is that we keep going, that we never give up no matter what, and we grit our teeth and bear with it. because its going to get better. come on. if it cant get worse, it can only get better right. and even if it doesnt get better, at least we'll be used to it. xi guan jiu hao ma. HAHA. im using chinese in my blog. gosh.
anyway. so in the midst of the mugging, the hanging out at the photocopy shop, the mugging, the studying in school, the mugging, the half opened canteen, the mugging, the waiting for 48 to come, lets try to live the best we can now. of course the muggings impt. but lets not forget that this is our life and this is two months of our life so lets do the best we can and live the best we can. no regrets. thats the most impt. no matter how we do in the final As, as long as we have no regrets, then these two years would have been worth it.
lets do it.
and to my dearest caroline, sorry for neglecting you these past few days/weeks! promise you'll never feel alone in sch. haha but try and talk back to me leh. i hate having monologues!
speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong,
move along move along like i know you do
and even when your hope is gone
move along move along
just to make it through
when everything is wrong
we move along
right back what is wrong
we move along
a star fell from the sky;
5:05 PM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
if you're a normal, school-going Victorian you would have noticed the recent trend in school. yes, im referring to the transition [metal?!] of our humble vj local monopoly [aka the photocopy shop] into the new orchard road! in fact i think its more hip and happening than orchard road. soon we're gonna be taking our barcadi to outside the photocopy shop to drink. boys and girls alike flock to the shop every day to have a gander, or as we like to say, to look see look see. and some even visit more than once a day. push open the door and besides the free radicals escaping, all you can see is a swarm of people in beige at the counter, and people standing behind the people at the counter, and people who are friends of the people at the counter or behind all hanging around. its even more crowded then orchard, and its equally crowded no matter what time you go. trash orchard hands down alr. we're all doing our best to make friends with the two photocopy aunties and hopefully get their no so they can call us when the next batch of papers are in. and how can i forget that piece of paper we all treat as gold? the one stuck to the counter that everybody checks out first when they step in. every day, vj people lug home stacks and stacks of so-fresh-you-can-still-smell-the-radicals paper, held together with the trusty HP paper that is totally unbreakable. or should i say malleable and ductile. we're like hyenas inside the shop la. eyeing all the things we can buy as if its free or sth. but well, what we do with the stacks and stacks once we get home is a totally different story.
good for you if you can recognise all the concepts in the above paragraph. if not, add some 2,4-dinitrophenylhydrazine and see if you get orange ppt.
cheers.
a star fell from the sky;
4:58 PM
